It's spring. You may have taken to cleaning out some of the spots you've been willing to overlook for the winter months - like the fridge.
You know how it works. You don't clean your fridge everyday. You let it build up until it reaches that "unoverlookable" point. You are content to have a little grime here or there, because the amount of effort it requires to disassemble everything (especially those parts where the _____ spilled) is way too high for the benefit.
In many ways, we treat our souls the same way. We let things build up. We are content to have a little grime, as long as it isn't spilling out for other people to see (because then we would have to deal with it). No, there is far too much effort needed to keep our souls clean - in fact, it is impossible.
I like the picture of "factory clean" - you know, the way the fridge looks when it arrives from the factory. Before you've used it. It is amazing how the moment we use something it will never be truly clean again. No matter how hard you try, you can never get the fridge factory clean. There is bound to some amount of spot, smear or grim that you have to overlook.
The same is true of our souls. We can't get them "factory clean." There is no more "brandnewness" left. And we know this is a problem. We might overlook the crud, but we all know God doesn't.
God is not about appearances. "Factory clean" is the only acceptable clean in His holy heaven. Only perfectly clean fridges will find a place there. So what are we to do? Nothing. There is nothing we can do.
But He can. And He has. Jesus is factory clean. He is the brand new humanity. Spotless, smearless, grimeless. All He has ever done is love and forgive and "mercify" every around Him, and trust and obey His Father above. He is God's renewal - God's way of making you factory clean. Jesus was sent down here - in order to gift us with His newness - in order to pave a factory clean way back to holy heaven, for an otherwise dirty group of people. He is the Only Way, and He gives your soul "brandnewness" in Him - for free.
May you rest from your vigorous cleaning in the One who is your newness - even Christ, God's own cleanness made your own.